Two years ago I sat opposite a date. My hands were trembling and my heart was pounding. I was uncomfortable and so was she, who wouldn’t be – I was a total mess. I was trying to maintain eye contact but each time I caught her eye, my face became brighter and redder, so I just stopped looking at her. I felt terrible. She asked if I was ok, I lied and said yes. The conversation was awkward and when the dinner was over, we were both relieved.
These embarrassing situations used to happen to me DAILY. Knowing I had a problem with blushing and focusing on it only seemed to make matters worse. I felt that I couldn’t talk to anyone about it and I spiraled into a deep depression.
I started holing up in my room and began avoiding work, friends and family. I was at one of the lowest points in my life and I felt pathetic. What made it worse was that I knew other people would see my problem as silly and so I spoke to no one about it. Instead I started searching for a cure by myself.
I thought I could hide my blushing with make up. As a man I had never done this before and applying facial cream seemed like a smart idea at the time. I walked into a local cosmetics store and bought a skin toner, went into the bathroom and applied it onto my face. I looked like a zombie but I thought at least no one would notice me if I blushed. However, when walking down the high street everyone kept giving me strange looks. People were looking at me as if I were some type of burn victim. I vowed never to do this again. Luckily I had a back up plan.
I came across a surgery called ETS which would cut the blood vessels in my face. This would make it physically impossible for me to blush again. It sounded like… Read more…
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